Just thoughts…
What is it that I see in you?
You are but, quite ordinary.
Tall, dark and handsome – no not really.
Perhaps I’m just in love with the thought of you.
In love? Yes, in love with the thought of you.
I knew you for not very long, but I knew you well.
I knew what you were thinking
And what your mind was about to tell.
Or perhaps it was my strong intuition,
Which works on everyone, so maybe I didn’t know you that well.
Fine.
Thinking for a year I’ve just wasted my time.
Fine!
But you see, I still have a problem,
I’m still in love with the thought of you,
Which I’m unable to handle.
It has murdered the better half of me,
I’m surprised you failed to see.
Or perhaps I shouldn’t be surprised,
For I told you once “you’re so compassionate”,
maybe I was wrong.
And when you said “No I’m not”,
maybe you were right.
I’m so unsure of myself and everything that surrounds me,
Trust me I really want to let go and be free…
To be free from the thought of being in love with you.
I have to be free,
Before this thought murders the other half of me too.
Copyright © Ambalika Banerjee, 2006
posted by Cobainess - ambalika at Friday, August 25, 2006
7 Comments:
the man agrees totally all the way here..... daaeeyumm...
What is it that I see in you?
You are but, quite ordinary.
After reading this, there are so many mixed emotions inside me. I really liked it as you particularly mention "murder the better half of me" I wish I was able to express myself so freely and with so much presence of mind.
I kinda believe that if it's this hard to let go, then it is probably better to let go..if you know what I mean. I don't know much but I can only imagine that whatever "thought" you're in love with had to be worth its time and remembrance. But it's beautifully written (in literary terms) and is actually quite touching in the sense that I felt a bit forced to think ab't my past, which is hard for me to let go as well....We all are so unsure of ourselves!
Actually yes.. It was worth it then. Sweetheart he was.Is perhaps.. Really nice guy.. But I will get over it..Like i say Memories fade away too.. I have to get over it, rather him. He was a darling friend.. But I'll be fine.. we all eventually are..
However, I must tell u that, I know what i want.. and I am in NO WAY settling for anything below that.. I have to find that Bodhisattva Love.. its the only way i can be happy!
way to girl gurl
im proud of u
hey cobainess,
Is it truly so easy to separate yourself from the thought of the person you love.What happens when that person everyday just tears your heart into shreds and claims he loves you a lot.
Well Ms. ( i have a feeling u are female)Anonymous,if the person claims to love you, he or she won't tear your heart. But if he or she does, then its not worth it.
But the problem is when u "think" or led to "think" that he does, and then he tears ur heart out.. and u have to face him everyday and u know u have to let go, for reasons known and unknown. No it is not easy to separate oneself from this. tears still well up when i think about the recent happening in my life..so it is not easy. And the sadest part is that other ppl make it more difficult. Sadistic ppl..
Who are u?
beautiful...
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